Damai bersama Mu

Tuhan...semoga aku terus teguh dan tabah menghadapi cabaran dan ujian dunia ini.

Apa akan kita lakukan?

Salam.

Life is so unpredictable...trust me. Hari ni nak cerita pasal kekasih lama sikit. Apasal pulak akak nak citer pasal kekasih lama ni yer? Kebetulannya banyak pulak lah semenjak dua menjak akak ni "dihidangkan" dengan citer2 macam ni.

One good thing about listening to the story of life, it will make you put your life into perspective.

Cerita kali ini pasal kawan aku yang hidup nya bermadu. Dah 5 tahun bermadu katanya. Bila aku tanya siapa madunya, ex-girlfriend husband dia katanya. Madu nya lebih tua dari dia. Itulah penangan nya bila berjumpa semula kekasih lama. Soalnya, apa yang akan kita laku kan bila kita bertemu semula kekasih lama? If you ask me, I don't know and I don't have the answer.

Di pendek kan cerita, kekasih lama suami nya sudah pun berkahwin tetapi dia menuntut cerai dari suami pertamanya. Jadi berkahwin lah pula dengan suami kawan aku tu. Aku salute kawan aku sebab dia sanggup utk bermadu. Payung emas gitu! Masalahnya...here we go, bila dah kahwin suaminya pun mula menyesal, begitu juga dengan madu nya. Suami nya mula membanding2kan 1st wife dengan 2nd wife. Wat da ya expect....kalau dah kawin hampir 20 tahun, sudah tentu isteri pertama lebih banyak memahami tentang kerenah suaminya, do and don't, karektor , favorite dan keadaan kerja suami. Madu nya menyesal sebab suami nya bukan orang yang sama di kenali sewaktu muda2 dulu, bingo! Hahaha...nak buat camner, dah terkahwin!

At certain point in life, we changed. Kita mungkin bukan orang yang sama 10~20 tahun dulu. Pengalaman, persekitaran dan ilmu mampu membuat manusia berubah. Jadi, jangan terburu2 bila membuat keputusan yang penting sebegitu. Seronoknya sekejap saja...then what? Allah punya sebab yang baik kenapa dia bukan jodoh kita pada awal nya. Tapi kalau ada jodoh juga...Allah juga ada sebab yang baik untuk itu.

Mind you....one of my friends married to her ex a few months ago! You guess what, her 1st husband passed away and she remarried then divorced with her second husband. Later, she met again with her ex which was a divorcee then. Now they are married! Told ya...life is sooooo unpredictable!

Reunion Ex-MGS Ipoh '85

Just wanna say thank you banyak2 kat hubby aku sebab sanggup bersusah-payah drive balik KL untuk bagi peluang reunion kawan2 aku masa kat MGS dulu. Thank you sebab belikan digital camera baru jadi aku boleh ambik gambar banyak2 (walau x byk aku ambik sbb sibuk sembang2). Digital camera yang dulu dah "kong". Thank you sebab install GPRS kat handphone dia so that senang nak cari location. Thank you sebab tolong jaga anak2 "bertawaf" kat The Curve semasa aku jumpa kengkawan.Thank you kat anak2 sebab bersabar tunggu emak!(Bang...nanti saya service abang baikkkk punyer! Hehehe....)

Best nyer jumpa kawan2 lama. Itu bagusnya FB ni, rapatkan semula silaturrahim. Tak puas rasanya bercerita. Maklumlah dah 25 tahun tak berjumpa! Semua nostalgia zaman sekolah keluar semula. Yang dah terlupa pun ingat balik....so beautiful. One thing about good times, when you remember it...it will make you smile again! Cuma aku kena balik awal sebab nak balik Kuantan semula. Rupa2nya kengkawan aku balik pukul 9 malam...sakan betul makcik2 tu! Hope we can see each other again.InsyaAllah.

It makes me realized about life. It is not the smartest who deserved to be rich or happy. It doesn't matter whether you finished school or not, it doesn't matter if you hold a degree or not. We are all the same. Each and everyone deserved to be rich and happy. There are thousands of story in life. We have our own story to tell and others have theirs. Life can be sad and happy. Allah has it own script to us. But how we react to the script that matters, whether we gain merits i.e "pahala" or demerits i.e "dosa". By the end of the day in Mahsyar ALLAH is the one who will judge us accordingly. Wallahualam.

Thanks to all my friends especially my best friend Noor Fuziaton for being my best friend since 1981, for going thru thick and thin in life together. May Allah Bless you always....Love u all!

Siapalah kita

Aku terima artikel ni dari pakcik aku thru e-mail. So, mari kongsi bersama-sama. Untuk menjadi peringatan diri kita yang serba lemah dan kurang ni. Semoga kita menjadi hambaNya yang berserah diri kepadaNya...sepenuhnya. If you wish to copy n paste, please do so.



In this world you cannot do as you like. The only ONE who can do as He likes is ALLAH because He owns you, the earth, the skies and everything that is in them whether seen or unseen.

HE maps out everyone’s life and records it in Lahul Mahfuz, the Book of Creation. He changes the map as He wills or keeps them as they are. Before you are born, this is what happens. (I will simplify this process to its simplest form – excerpt from Hadcith Rasulullah)

“Everyone goes through a process of 4 stages of development when in his/her mother’s womb. The first 40 days, the sperm and the egg develops into a lump of blood and develops into an embryo the size of a lentil (sebiji kacang dal), then the next 40 days it develops into a lump of “meat” (The embryo's facial features are forming with dark spots where the eyes are, openings where the nostrils will be, and pits to mark the ears, etc.). When the fetus is 120 days old, Allah sends the angel to blow His ruh into the fetus and He ordered to malaikat to record 4 things into the fetus which decides the baby’s rezeki (provisions and bounties like wealth, children, good health, etc) the life span (the time of birth and death and how he/she is going to die), the religious practice (amal whether he/she is going to be an obedient slave or a kafir. NB: some people who were born kafir, by Allah’s will he/she is reverted to Islam)) and his/her fate in life (whether to be a person with His blessing (barakat) or a person despised and left astrayed by Him). Rasulullah was not a medical doctor but he got all his info directly from Allah, the Creator of all forms of Life.

It is not just our life belongs to Allah but everything inside us belongs to Him. Whatever He has given us must not be abused or He will take them back. Just recently, a beautiful 22 year-old Turkish girl who had won many beauty contests in her home town, met with a traffic accident on her way to the national beauty pageant in Istanbul. In the accident, her face was disfigured and her arms and legs were broken. She was a Muslim.

Your body is not yours. If you misused it, Allah will damage it through so many ways that you never thought of. He can paralyse half of your body or whole of it. In the kubur, the earth will damage your body into bits to be eaten by worms, unless it is the body of a prophet, wali, or those whom Allah accepts.

Christopher Reeve, a physically strong man (1952-2004) who had acted in many Superman movies and showed the whole world that he could carry the planet Earth with one hand died as a quadriplegic, aged 52. Allah made him fall from his horse. He was not a superman after all.

Muhammad Ali, once a world renowned boxer who always bragged “I am the Greatest”, At age 42 (in 1984) Allah infected him with Parkinson's disease. Since then, he could not walk properly, talk properly and all parts of his body shake when he moves. He is not “the Greatest” if someone had told him that his body does not belong to him.

How many billionaires had turned into bankrupts and how many wealthy banks in USA had to be rescued by the US government to save the money of the customers? Wealth belongs to Allah, and if misused, Allah will take it back. In the Qur’an, He explains that it is He who expands the rezeki of anyone and it is He who contracts the rezeki.

If you have successfully achieved a high education which lands you with a good career, that is a blessing from Allah. Your cleverness and intelligence are not your own creation. He can make you clever today and He can make you stupid tomorrow. He can make you sharp and alert today and He can make you insane tomorrow. Your brain is His creation.

If you are healthy, that is also a gift from Allah, because He can make you sick and He can paralyse you tomorrow through so many of His mysterious ways. There are 1001 sickness which Allah can befall upon you, from simple allergies to serious chronic diseases.

In short, no one is free to do what he/she likes. Everyone is bound by the rules of Allah.

Your freedom and human rights are what Allah has set for you in the al-Qur’an and Rasulullah’s Hadith. Islamic life has a discipline, the rules and regulations in all matter of life. If you are clever, you would choose a safe life under the protection of Allah by sticking to His laws. We have the 5 rukuns of being a Muslim, the 6 rukuns of Iman, and the laws of Haram and Halal.

No one lives forever in this world. (Kullu nafsin dza iqatul maut). Our real future is in Akhirat, the permanent abode. There are only two countries in Akhirat – Paradise or Hell. Choose where you want to be from NOW !!!

May Allah guide me and you along the straight path, so that we can have a happy life in this world and the next….insyaAllah.


رَبَّنَا آتِنَا فِي الدُّنْيَا حَسَنَةً وَفِي الآخِرَةِ حَسَنَةً وَقِنَا عَذَابَ النَّارِ (2:201)

"Our Lord! Give unto us in the world that which is good and in the Hereafter that which is good, and protect us from the torture of Fire." -

"Ya Tuhan kami, berilah kami kebaikan di dunia dan kebaikan di akhirat dan peliharalah kami dari siksa neraka"".


Reminder:
“وَلاَ تَمْشِ فِي الأَرْضِ مَرَحًا إِنَّكَ لَن تَخْرِقَ الأَرْضَ وَلَن تَبْلُغَ الْجِبَالَ طُولاً

And don’t walk on Earth with arrogance: for, verily, you can never penetrate the Earth and you can never be as tall as the mountains"

Dan janganlah kamu berjalan di muka bumi ini dengan sombong karena sesungguhnya kamu sekali-kali tidak dapat menembus bumi dan sekali-kali kamu tidak setinggi gunung. (QS 117:37)

Bongkok kita...

Semalam aku dikunjungi anak perempuan jiran ku untuk menggunakan internet di rumah ku. Nak check offer letter PTPTN katanya. Aku mempelawanya masuk. Dia belajar di salah sebuah IPTA di utara tanahair. Cuti CNY ni…adalah seminggu di rumah kata nya. Setelah selesai, aku terus berborak2 dengan nya. Bertanya hal2 pengajian, kehidupan dan kos2 sara hidup di IPTA.

Tanpa aku minta dia mula bercerita tentang hal2 cinta. Hmmm…..remaja, tidak akan sempurna hidup kalau tidak bercinta. Aku tahu dia bukan mahu pendapat atau nasihat aku tapi lebih kepada meluahkan perasaan di dada. Cerita tentang kekasih lama yang ingin kembali semula kepada nya, cerita tentang pilihan lain yang dia ada, cerita tentang kena serang dengan girlfriend kekasih lama, cerita tentang teman dia yang diganggu kekasih lama yang dah berkahwin..…eh apsal citer kekasih lamer jer nih! Citer pasal teman satu dom yang pengkid pun ader.

Aku pun bertanya kalau2 emak dan ayah nya tahu tentang citer2 dia ni. Tak tahu katanya. Biasalah tu. Selalunya anak2 kita sendiri susah nak bercerita kepada kita tentang hal2 peribadi. Mereka akan mencari orang2 yang lebih selesa untuk mereka bercerita. Cabaran anak2 kita sebenarnya lebih hebat dari zaman kita dulu. Kekadang aku pun terkedu mendengar masalah dorang tu. Mereka cukup bijak sebenarnya, cuma perlukan sedikit bimbingan agar tak tersalah jalan. Hahaha…macam Biro Aduan Masyarakatlah pulak akak ni! Cuma satu sahaja aku harapkan, bila giliran anak2 aku…aku harap mereka tahu kepada siapa mereka boleh luahkan. Teringat kata2 emak aku, kita tak boleh luruskan bongkok kita sendiri, kita perlu orang lain untuk meluruskan nya.

Bila dah pencen nanti...

Geram pulak rasa nya kat Cik Punggah aku tu. Memang banyak cengkadak betul! Nak makan pun tak senang...ader jer kerenah dia. Sambil melayan dia muka aku mencuka....tiba2 sesuatu terlintas masuk ke dalam fikiran aku. Aku terus tersenyum. Hubby aku pun rasa cam pelik pulak. "Apasal awak tetiba tersenyum?" tanya nya kehairanan. "Kalau ikutkan hati ni, memang nak marah dengan Amirah ni. Tapi tiba2 saya terfikir pulak...masa ni lah saya boleh layan kerenah dia. Nanti bila dorang semua dah besar, awak pandang saya dan saya pandang awak!" kata ku. "Tinggallah kita berdua jer kat rumah yang besar ni," tambah aku lagi. Hubby aku terdiam. Pastu dia tanya, "Bila dah pencen nanti kita nak duduk kat mana?". "Ntahlah bang...saya tak terfikir pun pasal tu, duduklah kat mana2 pun, rumah ni pun dah cukup bagus. Itu pun kalau panjang umur, ntah hari ni ntah besok saya mati. Dunia ni sementara jer, why bother? Lebih baik saya fikirkan tentang hari ini. Bukan tak fikir langsung pasal masa depan...kita buatlah apa yang patut. As long as everything is already paid off, let fate takes us to where ever it wants!" jawab ku. "Habis tu, Abang nak duduk kat mana?" tanya ku semula kepada nya. "Ntah...Abang pun tak tahu," sahut nya.

Kwang...kwang...kwang...2X5 daaaa...Another 13 years to go!

A Special Occasion

This story is special dedicated to my dear friend who works so hard for his family. I do hope he finds enjoyment in this life and he deserves to treat himself well!

A Special Occasion

My brother-in-law opened the bottom drawer of my sister's bureau and lifted out a tissue-wrapped package. "This," he said, "is not a slip. This is lingerie." He discarded the tissue and handed me the slip. It was exquisite; silk, handmade and trimmed with a cobweb of lace. The price tag with an astronomical figure on it was still attached. "Jan bought this the first time we went to New York, at least eight or nine years ago. She never wore it. She was saving it for a special occasion. Well, I guess this is the occasion."

He took the slip from me and put it on the bed with the other clothes we were taking to the mortician. His hands lingered on the soft material for a moment, then he slammed the drawer shut and turned to me. "Don't ever save anything for a special occasion. Every day you're alive is a special occasion."

"Someday" and "one of these days" are losing their grip on my vocabulary. If it's worth seeing or hearing or doing, I want to see and hear and do it now. I'm not sure what my sister would have done had she known that she wouldn't be here for the tomorrow we all take for granted. I think she would have called family members and a few close friends. She might have called a few former friends to apologize and mend fences for past squabbles. I like to think she would have gone out for a Chinese dinner, her favorite food. I'm guessing I'll never know.

It's those little things left undone that would make me angry if I knew that my hours were limited. Angry because I put off seeing good friends whom I was going to get in touch with -- someday. Angry because I hadn't written certain letters that I intended to write -- one of these days. Angry and sorry that I didn't tell my husband and daughter often enough how much I truly love them. I'm trying very hard not to put off, hold back, or save anything that would add laughter and luster to our lives.

And every morning when I open my eyes, I tell myself that it is special. Every day, every minute, every breath truly is a gift.

Jika Itu Takdir nya (Akhir)

Jeng...jeng..jeng...suspense tak? Ok lah, kita kasi habis ini cerpen. Semoga anda semua terhibur dengan cerpen akak ni. Kalau ending nyer tak best,korang buatlah ending sendiri...hehehe :)

Peringatan :Cerita ini hanya rekaan semata-mata, tiada kena mengena kepada yang hidup atau pun yang telah mati. Dilarang "copy n paste" tanpa kebenaran penulis.

“Nad, kau jangan nak tukar ganti Azli dengan sesiapa pun,” kata kakak ku Maisarah. Marah benar kakak ku bila aku memberitahu tentang Syam. Aku faham benar, sememangnya keluargaku suka kan Azli. Sememang nya Azli pandai mengambil hati keluargaku. “Buat apa si Syam tu nak menyesal, salah dia. Menyesal pun dah tak berguna, dia yang bodoh melepaskan kau dulu! Belajar jer tinggi-tinggi, ” tambah nya. Hubungan aku dengan Syam mendapat restu keluarga aku dulu. Aku masih ingat betapa kakak aku yang menangis bila dia mendapat berita tentang putus nya hubungan aku dengan Syam. Seolah-olah dia yang putus cinta. Aku cuba merahsiakan dari keluarga ku waktu itu. Aku tidak mahu mereka bimbang tentang aku yang berada di bumi asing. Namun kepulangan seorang teman ke tanah air sewaktu cuti musim panas membongkar cerita.

Aku terus mencuba untuk melupakan Syam. Terkadang aku memikir kan bagaimana harus aku lakukan untuk memutuskan hubungan ini. Lagi aku fikirkan lagi sesak fikiran dan dada ku. Aku akan menjadi sedih dan murung. Semua tugas harian menjadi lebih kacau-bilau. Lagi deras airmata ku keluar. Tapi bila aku berhenti memikirkan nya, aku menjadi lebih lega. Apakah makna semua ini.Ah…benar-benar kacau. Ya Allah, tolonglah aku!

Nadiah sering bersolat taubat. Sungguh berdosa rasanya terhadap Azli. Walau pun tumpuan terhadap solatnya semakin berkurangan semenjak peristiwa itu. Nadiah gagah kan jua. Bila hati nya tidak keruan, Nadiah melakukan solat 2 rakaat. Kepada siapa lagi Nadiah ingin mengadu jika bukan kepada Rabb nya. “Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan solat; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk;” (al-Baqarah 45). Ayat itulah menjadi kekuatan buatnya. Nadiah bermohon agar Tuhan memberi dia jalan keluar dari permasalahan nya. Namun Nadiah masih lagi mencari-cari jawapan kenapa Allah telah mentakdirkan nya begitu.

Malam itu airmata Nadiah berhamburan lagi di sejadah. Di waktu sebegitu Azli sedang lena di ulit mimpi. Tiba-tiba hati Nadiah berasa lapang. Dia mula menyedari sesuatu. Ketentuan Tuhan telah menemu kan dia dengan Syam seawal remaja. Ketentuan Tuhan juga menyebabkan Syam meninggalkan nya dan dengan ketentuan Tuhan juga menemukan dia semula dengan Syam. Sememangnya Syam bukan ditakdirkan untuk nya. Nadiah tidak tahu apa rahsia Nya tetapi yang dia pasti itulah ujian Tuhan untuk diri nya. Agar dia menjadi seorang hamba yang lebih berserah diri kepada Nya. Nadiah mula mendapat kekuatan untuk menamatkan kisah cinta nya. Jika itu takdir nya, Nadiah pasrah!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~"N"~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

“Don’t fall in love but rise in love!”

Ada Kaki

Semua barang kat rumah aku ada kaki. Knaper....tak percaya ker?

SCENE 1

Aku sedang memasak di dapur. Tiba2 Amirah a.k.a. Cik Punggah masuk...

Amirah: Hmm...sedap nyer mak masak!
Aku : Nak ambik hati mak lah tu, thank you!
Amirah : Welcome.

Pastu aku sediakan hidangan tengahari. Aku tengok dah bersepah2 barang mainan di depan ruangan TV. Dengan nada perli...

Aku : Hmm...pandainya Mirah wat sepah!
Amirah : Thank you! (dengan nada ceria...)
Aku + hubby : Welcome...
Hubby : Bertuah punyer anak!
Aku : (Speechless...)

SCENE 2

Ruang TV bersepah lagi dengan barang2 mainan, kusyen sofa, bantal peluk dan bermacam-macam lagi.

Aku : Eh...bantal peluk ni ada kaki lah!
Amirah : Mana ader. Mak tengok...dia mana ada muka, tangan, kaki...mana ader!
Aku : Tapi kan Mirah..kalau dia tak ader kaki macam mana dia boleh keluar dari bilik arr? Mesti dia berjalan. Ni buku emak ni pun, macam mana dia ada kat sini! Mesti dia ada kaki...
Amirah : Emak ni!(Baru terperasan)

Alhamdulillah...thanks to Allah for giving me the opportunity to have her in my life. Hubby aku kata, bukankah kita selalu mintak pada Allah supaya kita termasuk di dalam golongan orang2 yang sabar ke? Jadi...sabar tu bukan benda percuma, you need to be trained dear! Amirah is one of your training material. Be careful what you wish for!

Life is....

That day I made a delivery to my old office. As usual, there will always be chatting and joking around. Then they passed me the promotional list for the year. Well....quite a list and that was good! And there was ooh and aah. So some comments made, fair and unfair...obviously not from me, from them. Then one of my friends said "Kak Nik, so you were making a right decision to leave this company, eh!". I smiled at her and said, "Well, I don't know whether it was a good or bad decision that I made back then, but one thing for sure...I just moved on.There is no right or wrong answer, life is what you make out of it. No matter what decision you make, but make sure you are happy girl!".

Then I met my ex-colleague. Well, quite sad I would say. She is totally not happy with the workload and the boss (my ex-boss). No communication with the boss and she totally loath him! And I asked her, "Why are you still working here?". "It is just for the money Kak Nik, I got it every 25th.!" that was her response. Sometimes I wonder, is the money more important than your happiness? Most people rather being right than being happy! Still remember the advice I gave them before I left; love whatever you do. You don't live twice in this world. Make sure that you are happy with your job because most of our waking hours we spend are always on our job! Make peace with everybody since we are depending on each others to make any job well done. At the end of the day no matter who you are, everybody just wanna go home and be happy! Obviously....she didn't take my advice.

Life is not about fair or unfair, just get on with it!

Sabor jer lah...

Salam,

Hari ni nak citer pasal orang M.L.M. Memang dari dulu aku tak suka M.L.M ni. Tak suka kalau dorang approach aku. Tapi lagi aku tak suka...lagi suka lah pulak dorang cari aku. Law of attraction I guess. Easy target kut!

Sebab2 aku tak suka;

1) Dorang cukup bagus menakutkan kita dengan fakta yang ntah aper2 tu. Takut sakit, takut mati, takut tak pandai dan macam2 takut lagi. (Takut kat ALLAH jer lah...)

2) Produk dorang lah yang paling baik, siap bagi testimoni lagi. Belum lagi citer pasal certification lagi. Ntah bermacam2 certification dari mana pun tak tahu. Belum lagi jual nama2 orang kenamaan lagi.

3) Kalau produk kesihatan, dorang lagi pandai dari pak Doktor! Macam dorang dah khatam human anatomy. Parrot jer tu...

4) Dorang lah orang paling ikhlas. Nak tolong orang lah, nak kongsi informasilah, nak kongsi citer, nak aper lagi yer....Klentong jer lebih, nak duit kita jer sebenarnyalah! Nak accumulate bonus dorang aderlah.

5) Tak cukup dengan nak jual produk jer...siap suruh kita jadi agentlah pulak! Nanti kita pun boleh jadi kaya macam sipolan bin sipolan tu. Kebanyakan nyer tension dengan kerja makan gaji dorang. Duit banyak mana pun tak cukup!

6) They make money out of people sweats! Paling worst, kita bayar harga barang tu lebih dari sepatutnya dari harga pasaran. Then they give you thousand reasons why it is expensive!

7) Some of MLM people are annoying! I hate to be annoyed by people, so I do not want to do the same thing to others.


So, kalau ader sesiapa orang MLM yang baca blog aku...ni nak citer sket pasal pendapat aku. Korang boleh pilih untuk tak bersetuju...tak paksa pun sesiapa setuju ngan aku. Namanya pun pendapat.

1) Aku tak suka beli barang yang aku tak perlukan. Membazir namanya. There are things good to have, must have or nice to have. Aku akan differentiate semua tu sebelum aku beli. Most of MLM items are nice to have! Bukan semua lah...

2) Manusia ni tak sama. Ada orang yang lembut hati, keras hati, hati batu dan macam2 hati lagi. Paling aku kesian kalau ada orang yang tak ada duit atau tak ada budget utk benda2 yang korang jual tu, pergi beli barang tu dan sacrifice benda lain yang lebih penting. Itu pun sebab tak sampai hati tengok korang yang bersusah payah. Worst case, bila ader yang jadi perang laki bini bila dorang dah terbeli barang2 korang tu. Korang tak kesian ker...cukuplah perang yang kat IRAQ ngan AFGANISTAN tu tak payah tambah perang lain!

3) Satu lagi bab disiplin bila dah beli barang2 yg korang jual tu. Bukan barang korang tak bagus, tapi kalau tak ada disiplin nak menggunakan nya...lantaklah turun dari langit pun! Satu sen pun tak guna...

4) Bukan aku tak nak kaya macam korang. Dalam beratus ribu orang M.L.M, berapa ramai yang jadi jutawan? Semua ker? (Sorry...I sound sceptical here) Nak kaya memang tak ader shortcut...kena kerja kuat juga, kena tebal muka juga. Sanggup atau tak sanggup?
Nak buat atau tak nak buat? I don't give excuses in life. Fullstop. I'm in my comfort zone....

5) Berapa ramai yang ikhlas sebenar nya? Wallahua'lam.


So, no hard feelings yer! Akak ni rasa buang masa jer layan orang M.L.M tadi. Tak layan, kawan kita lah pulak. So, I opened my heart and my ears. Jadi nak melepaskan perasaan kat sini jer. Nasib baik akak guna teknik "broken record" tadi . "I know your product is good, but I don't need it at the moment!" repeat it few times sampai dorang give up. Muahaha...

Sabor jer lah.....

Jika Itu Takdir nya IV

Kita sambung lagi ya! Tapi di mana kita stop yer.... oh, ok...

Peringatan :Cerita ini hanya rekaan semata-mata, tiada kena mengena kepada yang hidup atau pun yang telah mati. Dilarang "copy n paste" tanpa kebenaran penulis.


"Syam, aku rasa amat bersalah terhadap Azli. Sampai bila harus begini," kata ku. "Nad, kita tidak pernah bertemu, hanya berkawan seperti ini," ujar Syam di hujung talian. Sememangnya kami tidak pernah bertemu setakat ini. Jika di ikutkan hati, rasa bagaikan ingin terbang kepadanya. "Walau apa pun alasannya, ia tetap salah Syam!Aku isteri orang dan kau pula suami orang," jawab ku. "Ya, kau betul Nad. Aku tahu, tapi aku tak sanggup kehilangan kau lagi. Tahu kah kau bagaimana aku rasakan bila aku berjumpa semula permata yang telah aku tersalah buang dulu? Bila aku temui semula dia telah menjadi milik orang lain. Aku hanya dapat melihat nya tapi tidak dapat menyentuh nya! Tahu kah kau Nad?" tanya mu. Syam, kau memang pandai bermain dengan kata-kata. Jika tidak masa kan aku boleh jatuh ke tangan mu dulu! Detak hati ku. "Aku malu untuk meminta dari Tuhan lagi jika aku kehilangan mu kali ini." tambah Syam. Aku kelu, benar-benar kelu bila ku dengar kata-kata dari Syam.Tidak tahu apa yang harus aku katakan. "Cuma aku belum berani untuk meminta dari Tuhan agar aku boleh memiliki mu!" ujar Syam sungguh-sungguh. "Jangan kau berani Syam, jangan!" aku bersuara. "Fikirkan tentang jiwa-jiwa yang tidak berdosa itu, keluarga mu dan keluarga ku." tambah ku. Airmataku terus mengalir tanpa henti. Kenapa harus aku yang pikul derita ini Syam. Kau yang makan nangka kenapa aku pula yang terkena getahnya! Sungguh tidak adil aku rasa kan. "Jika kau mahu memutuskan hubungan ini, aku rela Nad. Aku ikut apa saja keputusan mu. Aku tidak mahu menyusah kan mu." kata Syam lagi. "Cuma percayalah Nad, aku amat mencintai mu. Aku akan mencintai mu selama-lamanya," tambah nya. Bagaikan jatuh jantung ku rasakan . Namun jauh di sudut hati ku, aku juga tidak mahu kehilangan mu Syam. Terasa tidak berdaya nya aku! “Nad...aku akan menunggu mu!” kata Syam.

Jika di ikutkan kegilaan hati nya, mahu saja Nadiah meninggalkan segala-gala nya demi Syam. Terkadang bila datang fikiran liarnya, adakah Syam sanggup melakukan perkara yang sama? Nadiah berteka-teki di hati nya. Berbaloi kah? Bagaimana dengan Azli, bagaimana dengan anak-anak yang menjadi buah hati dan pengarang jantungnya? Bagaimana cinta nya terhadap Azli? Sanggupkah dia melukakan hati Azli dan anak-anak nya? Mampukah dia melupakan Azli pula dan kenangan selama berbelas-belas tahun itu? Lebih rela mati rasanya daripada di beri pilihan itu. Ada masanya dia terasa seperti seorang yang bodoh. Masih mencintai orang yang melukai hati nya, masih mempercayai nya. Namun Nadiah masih lagi waras, masih lagi rasional. Cuma Nadiah tidak tahu sejauh mana dia mampu bertahan.

Bersambung...

A Good Lesson

A young man, a student in one of our universities, was one day taking a walk with a professor, who was commonly called the students' friend, from his kindness to those who waited on his instructions. As they went along, they saw lying in the path a pair of old shoes, which they supposed to belong to a poor man who was employed in a field close by, and who had nearly finished his day's work.

The student turned to the professor, saying: "Let us play the man a trick: we will hide his shoes, and conceal ourselves behind those bushes, and wait to see his perplexity when he cannot find them."

"My young friend," answered the professor, "we should never amuse ourselves at the expense of the poor. But you are rich, and may give yourself a much greater pleasure by means of the poor man. Put a coin into each shoe, and then we will hide ourselves and watch how the discovery affects him."

The student did so, and they both placed themselves behind the bushes close by. The poor man soon finished his work, and came across the field to the path where he had left his coat and shoes. While putting on his coat he slipped his foot into one of his shoes; but feeling something hard, he stooped down to feel what it was, and found the coin. Astonishment and wonder were seen upon his countenance. He gazed upon the coin, turned it round, and looked at it again and again. He then looked around him on all sides, but no person was to be seen. He now put the money into his pocket, and proceeded to put on the other shoe; but his surprise was doubled on finding the other coin. His feelings overcame him; he fell upon his knees, looked up to heaven and uttered aloud a fervent thanksgiving, in which he spoke of his wife, sick and helpless, and his children without bread, whom the timely bounty, from some unknown hand, would save from perishing.

The student stood there deeply affected, and his eyes filled with tears. "Now," said the professor, "are you not much better pleased than if you had played your intended trick?"

The youth replied, "You have taught me a lesson which I will never forget. I feel now the truth of those words, which I never understood before: 'It is more blessed to give than to receive.'"

Author unknown, retold by Artin Tellalian

Cepat nya Masa Berlalu

Salam.

Diam tak diam dah habis dah Januari 2010. Macam tu lah masa dalam kehidupan kita. Kata pujangga, masa itu ibarat pedang. Kalau kita tak memotong masa, masa akan memotong kita. Saban hari kita akan melakukan perkara yang rutin. Cuba kita pikirkan semula...masa bila ianya bukan rutin? Rutin kalau mengikut fasa-fasa kehidupan kita. Semasa lahir, semasa bersekolah, semasa remaja, semasa meningkat dewasa, bekerja, berkahwin...semuanya mengikut rutin. Kalau ada kelainan pun kalau kita pergi bercuti atau ada sedikit kejutan dalam hidup. Yang pasti nya kalau kita ada masalah....yang itu tidak rutin! Kalau di pikir-pikirkan... bersyukurlah dengan masalah. Kalau tak ada masalah...hidup memang membosankan! Tapi kalau terlalu banyak masalah...memang memeningkan.

Setiap hari akan sentiasa ada baju untuk dibasuh, kerja pejabat yang perlu di siapkan, sampah untuk di buang, lantai utk di sapu, bill yang perlu di bayar dan mulut untuk di suap! Itulah namanya hidup. Merungut atau tidak...itulah rutin kita. Kita akan sentiasa punyai cita-cita lepas satu, satu. Tidak pernah kehabisan modal. Namun begitu dalam kita bergelut dengan perkara-perkara rutin dan cita-cita kita, ada tuntutan yang mesti kita laksana kan. Tuntutan kepada Tuhan. Sejauh mana telah kita melaksana kan nya?

Memang menakutkan. Kalau di pikir-pikirkan semula.... alamak memang confirm aku fail! Bagaimana hubungan dengan manusia pula? Adakah aku seorang sahabat yang baik? Isteri yang baik? Ibu yang baik? Anak yang baik? Manusia yang baik? Bagaimana aku nak menjawab di depan Nya? Aku tahu ini semua bersifat sementara....tetapi aku mesti melaluinya sementara menunggu aku mati. Yang paling penting...ikhlaskah aku? Kadang-kadang ia meletihkan aku!

Sabda nabi s.a.w: ”Sesungguhnya sehabis-habis kebahagiaan itu ialah panjang umur dalam mentaati Allah.”. (Riwayat Khotib daripada Abdullah dari bapanya).

Dan sabdanya lagi; ”Semulia-mulia manusia adalah orang yang paling bertaqwa diantara kamu.” (Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim)

One thing for sure, I already have one foot in the grave!